Maddie - The Emails After The Post

Maddie:

i am now going to be honest. completely.

i'm an awful person who doesn't deserve friends. i lie. all the time. i lie before i even have a chance to consider telling the truth. i want everyone to love me, and not have to work at it in return. i had a party. i lied to you about it. for that i am sorry, but not for not inviting you. heres the thing, when it's just you and me, and maybe one other person, your awesome. but when you are around a large group of people your someone else entirely. you talk over people, and shove your way into conversations that you don't belong in. i should have told you this before and given you time to fix it, and then proceed to invite you. but i didn't. because, as i said before, i am a lazy ass person who didn't want to have to go out of my way. if you don't want to be my friend, i realize that is completely my fault. i probably didn't deserve for you to ever trust me. you were honest with me, and i didn't return the favor.

Sarah:

Alright. Thanks for being honest. I really wasn't mad as much as hurt that you didn't invite me anyway. I really do want to be friends with  you, and all of you guys, but i just hate who i am with you. I try not to shove into conversations, but it doesn't always work as well as i plan.  I just hate that i am so horrible to you guys when i am with all of you together, because i feel like i have just taken a little bit of everyone that fits in, and become someone who just doesn't work with the equation. I do forgive you, but just at least tell me next time you have a party. I dont mind not being invited for the same reasons you didn't invite me. I am used to that. I just dont want to be sneaked around and lied to. I get that it is just part of you to automatically lie  so as long as you tell me the truth later on, i am okay with it. Thanks for telling me the truth.

I gtg, but i will talk to you if i can later. Thanks

~Sarah